It’s hard to believe, but my beautiful little Erin moves out tomorrow to go to college. It feels like only five or maybe ten years ago since I was holding her tiny newborn body in my arms, and wondering how I could ever handle such a huge responsibility. And it seems like only a couple of years ago that she was completing elementary school. Now she is all grown up and so anxious to be off to face the world.
Ideas for posts come to me at odd times, so what I do is keep a running list of ideas for when I am in the mood or I have thought about it enough to write something. Well, recently I have had ideas, but they are all related to things that have happened recently, which are kind of negative and I want to write something positive this week. I am really tired of all the negativity and need to look at some of the brighter things in life, especially right now.
So to get away from the negative vacuum, I want to really distance myself from the now situation. There is good among all the bad right now, but I just need to go to a different place – a more positive place that is far from here. So, I want to move to the days of our free cruises (well, kind of free). This comes to mind because many of my friends are on one of these cruises in Hawaii right now, and it was a very happy time for me.
It’s been three months since I last wrote and three months since I become extremely ill. I am not all the way recovered yet, but am doing a lot better. Previous to this, the longest I have been sick was a month, and the majority of the symptoms were gone in a week or so. This time, the majority of the symptoms were with me for over two months. At this time, I won’t go into the details of all of my problems, but I do want to write about how this chronic illness has changed or reset my life.
Three weeks ago, I was on top of the world at work. We were finally getting resources to help with my project, things were getting organized like I have been trying to do for months, and it looked like we were on our way to building a great team in St. Petersburg. It was also looking like I would be able to finally get approval to attend a technical conference that would really help me a lot with work. Two weeks ago, I was also so consumed by work, that I worked all day, much of the evening, went to bed for about five hors, and started over again. I even worked a significant amount on weekends and during a family vacation so i could keep the work moving forward. It was tiring but I was excited.