Recently, I have been thinking of making some major changes in my life – long overdue changes, including employment, business direction, nutrition, relationships, and priorities. This is all great, but I have run into some snags that have been really discouraging; snags that make me question all that I have done. And then, I had an epiphany as I was taking a walk tonight trying to figure out where I had gone wrong. The answer: take baby steps.
I hesitate to write this at this time because I feel like I am still in the middle of things and might not have a complete prospective, but I also want to get this done while things are fresh. In early October 2011, I thought I was sick, but I think the reality is that I was sick as much as a year earlier and October just brought about the latest round of symptoms. It really doesn’t matter what the physical manifestations of my illness were, because they are just symptoms. I also had some symptoms during the summer of 2011 and some in March 2011and even some in December the year before. It’s possible that if I examined things before that, I would find more symptoms. What does matter is that all these physical manifestations probably came from the same underlying cause – stress.
For me, at times I can tell I am stressed. My heart seems to race, my body becomes tight, and my stomach might even act up a bit. At other times, things place stress on my body, like a physical injury would, that my mind doesn’t even realize is stress. The only way I know it was stress is by examining the symptoms.
The more I learn about stress and it’s symptoms, the more horrified I am that, what I use to think of as just a nuisance, causes an incredible amount so suffering, chronic illness, and worse. It is the silent threat disguised in sheep’s clothing. If more people were aware of its implications, I think we would be far better off as a world. However, it is not my intent at this time to start a global awareness campaign. Rather, I want to list a few of the symptoms of stress I have discovered on the internet. Some of these I have suffered with, and it was only by seeing that they can be caused by stress that I realized the danger of stress. Before this, I just thought I had a series of unrelated or maybe some related symptoms caused by who knows what. And not knowing what the “what” is makes it hard to address the problem. All you can do is try to mask the symptoms. But knowing the cause, you can attack the cause.
As I have been trying to figure out how to deal with my stress-related chronic illness, I have tried to find any means possible to get relief. Some things work, some things don’t work, some things work some of the time and not others. The whole journey has been a difficult path, but one that I needed to take; otherwise, things would just get worse.
At this time, I want to capture what I have learned. For the most part, this is to remind me of what I have learned and cannot afford to forget. If this can benefit you, so much the better, but remember that I am just sharing work works for me. Each must find their own way; I can only share my experience.
Yes, it’s that time of year again. That time when we are breaking out of winter and my lawn is actually green and beautiful. It’s also that time of year to think about what we are going to do for Spring Break and the coming summer. Great stuff, however, I can’t! At least I can’t before I get those horrid things called taxes out of the way. Oh, I hate doing taxes! I really try my very best to do them right, but I always have so many questions and wonder if I forgot something or did something wrong. Some have asked why I don’t hire someone to do them for me. Why go through all of the stress? Well, the problem is that I am not the best record keeper, so in order for me to “get” everything ready to hand-off to a tax person, I might as well take the last step and do it myself. So, until I am a better record keeper or have someone be my record keeper, I am stuck. The only good thing is that at least there is nice tax software out there to help me out.